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Sunday, March 13

WTV

just what i predicted last yr (:
what does it mean ?
u know that i'm studying in a different school now so
-no handphone
-cant sleep whenever u want (u dont even get enough sleep !)
-no free time
-no surfing web
-HOMESICK !
these're what i have to face.
i was cryin every nite for the first 3days
hahaha very funny rite ?
n i'm tired of crying for the same reason wishing that i can turn back my past n make this wont happen.
integomb is completely differ from smkpj !
specially dlm bab agama.
i was like....
dunno what to say.
i was thinking to transfer to smkpj back.
then bla bla bla
now insyaAllah i'm ok with dis school
better than okay (:
hope dis wuld last long , amin !

n i feel like i got 2 personalities now !
when at the integomb , i become a very good person (haha)
when i return home , i turn myself to my old-self .
u will have no idea !
but that is me.
n feels like i'm a fake n had make a big mistakeS.
ugh whateva !

life in integomb ?
so fine !
people there r soo friendly !
n the strangest thing is .. u will never know the people by their real name.
means they only use their nickname n i never know what's their real name :D
n their nickname are like .. haha u'll never heard !
n some of dem r not so ALIM pun.
the teachers ?
same as smkpj !
kind , caring , n i really love my chemistry teacher cuz she always has the spirit of teaching xD
n at integomb. .we didnt study all the time except for those pmr n spm candidates.
well i'm kinda happy here :)
with my new 3besties
they light up my days !
put pipah maria
ilysm !

but when i return home
i'm startin to miss my old life back.
i was so free before dis n...happy !
but its ok i didnt feel regret on what i done n happened
haha xD
i always pray that i can survive here at integomb n 'catch my high dream' n hope that dis sacrifice will worth what i've been always wish for
:)

xoxo

Sunday, February 27

new life ~ juz what i'd imagined last year

1week 2days at asrama?
pergh dunno what to say.
memang homesick la until now.
1st tu nak cari kawan memang senang cuz bdk2 kt sane frenly gile babi
tapi nak cari kawan baek tu....T^T
alhamdulilah so far aku ade 2 or 3 membe rapat
sikit kn T^T
yg sorang tu pun adik angkat
tp lebih baek ade dr takde kn ?
alhamdulilah lgpun aku baru seminggu.
plus aku x pegy orientation so memang situation ni akan jadi
aku redha (:

ms 3rd day tu aku cry teruk gile XD
i miss my family , my home , old frens , old teachers , HIM !
i felt like... ugh nak pindak blk smkpj ! ! !
kt sek tu mmg suasane laen gile dr smkpj !
da name pon integrasi.
tudung x bole singkat.
pergaulan kene ade batas nye.
nak bwat community pon haram.
skali korg wat mslh.
mmg bsuk la nme korg 1 sek nti.
tp yg bgos nye dak integomb ni takkan anti kite.
dorg still akan kwn nan kite cume dorg akn ckp2 blkg ar.

n environment die ?
memang aku x bole terime mule2.
bkn nak kate aku ni tak ingat agame islam ke.
tp bile msuk sne mmg rse kerdil ar.
bru seda byk gile dosa aku.
rupe nye byk lg hal agame aku tataw.
aku rase malu je , tp mcm tak phm lak aku kn mmg muke tembok.
hoho.
cikgu2 kt sne ok !
cume ad due tige yg mcm ....hmmm
tp still aku rindu cg smkpj.
tade cg yg bole ganti tmpt dowg kt aty aku yg suci ni.

Monday, February 14

tell me why

assalamualaikum !
actually aku belum daftar masuk asrama.
eh kejap , isnin td da daftar.
tapi rabu ni baru pegi.
tapi ramai ingat aku da pegi !
actually aku kena chicken pox so die tak bagi masuk awal. adoii
bile aku on9 je mesti orang tanye aku balik rumah kejap ke.
takkan la tiap2 ari aku balik rumah ingat asrama tu bapak aku punye :D

actually masa tulis post ni aku tengah
well kurang gembire xD
frust tak when u wait someone til midnite waitin for his/her text or call then about 12am++ die text "i'm tired now cant text u or otp"
haha so shit bebeh !
eh impossible la penat sampai cant talk kn ?
well we dunno cuz we'r not in his/her situation.
but at least cakap la dari awal taknak contact satu hari kn sng !! grrrr
i'm sick and tired of ur attitude and ur reasons.
and i feel like i dont know u.
you tell me that u need me then u ignore me.
yes i remember what u said that nite.
the PAIN was beating on me like a drum.
but i know that u see what u'r doin to me.
tell me why ?

ok finish merapu xD
thnks 4 read :)

Wednesday, February 9

i hate crying !

yeah lihatlah tajuk. mesti suda paham.
since i broke with sape tah , i promised to myself that i would never ever cry even a tear !
even i move to new school. .i didnt cry
but when i remembered that i'll be far apart from my friends especially the alpharian
tears come out jugak :'(

i know i have to be strong
but they are so special
bukan special yg di-consider OKU xD
i mean
even i'm not so talkative
i used to sit with them n hear what they talking about
n that'll make me laugh macam nak tercabut tekak !

especially maryleen n fara
mary dgn gelak donkey die *aku pun x taw mcm mne die bole buat,yg penting gigi die putih gile!
fara biase la dgn lawak bangang die n mulut lepas. hee
then bile syira termenung mary or fara akan jerit "WOY INGAT KAT **** JE ! "
pastu syaf pulak dtg "eh takla die tgh pandang mu****** kt luar kls tu !"
then dhanusya geleng2 "ish syahira awk ni nk mne satu ?"
"mne de dhanu awk pcaye la saye ! cume ade **** dlm aty sye ! (:P) kn fil kn?" syira akn cakap mcm tu dgn muke innocent la sgt.
aku speechless.
ati kau bukan ati aku ! sorry syira :P
pastu kak idah a.k.a shida dtg dgn 'sleng' ....sleng ap eh ? yg slu eric pakai tu
"kowrang satu jam ni cikguu takde ya ! " haha sleng bodoe tu la
time cg tade 3rk1 enjoy gile babi
munie & yaya buat bising mcm2 la dgn care tepuk tgn ke..nak bls dendam kt 4beta ms tu.
pastu aina pandang munie n yaya slek , mcm MAK mara anak :D
amar si ketua x peduli pun dgn kls die
the best monitor ever ! aku jujur ni ! cuz ko biarkan kitorang bising , tu yg aku bg ko darjat yg tinggi camtu.
amar sibuk berurusan dgn pak ustaz 3rk1 a.k.a luqman ruslan
luqman lg sorg ?
oh ape lg dgn cite chow kit die
chua dgn chris khusyuk gile dgr yg luqman kate taun dpn die nk pindah smkck (smk chow kit) *actually luqman bgtaw aku die nak pindah smkck aritu* xD bodoe punye luqman mesti cg intan sarina lailee sjaiful *aku hafal doe* bahagia ko akhirnya sek dkt tmpt favorite ko
nanti cite kat aku mcm mne sek tu cuz aku pun ingat nk apply
sumpah menyampah budak2 laki suke je sebut chow kit
iqraq pun same. tp time paling best aku terperasan aw, time pmr n amek result iqraq bersongkok ! bkn nk perli just nk ckp ko hensem weh n muat pulak songkok tu kt kepale ko :P

then cg masuk
abg roy punye time
faiz mesti buat muke if abg roy tye pape
aku ingat lg pantun dorg wat psl abg roy
hotstuff doe abg roy !
bangge gile kak ros a.k.a bissmi jd kekasih gelap die
haha
aku dgn zuriah msti kne attack dgn abg roy cuz berborak
aish benci doe
da la suke sepak meja org
kaki panjang konon

haha puas da aku merepek !
kalo ade cite x betol korg maafkan la ye :)
aku pun ingat2 lupe sume ni
btw aku just nk ckp
aku sayang gile babi kt korang whether kite rapat ke x !
without korg aku mungkin x kn smpai mcm skrg ! ceyh !
aku rindu 2rk1 & 3rk1 !
but at the same time aku da start fall in luv dgn alpha !
kls yg se-macam RK1 gak !
haha but unfortunately sekejap je aku dpt rase duduk dlm alpha
sedih jugak bile ingat
but i believe sumday we'll meet again n aku hope we'll be friends forever ! *amboyy
k la take care ya korang :')

p/s ; aku bwk gmbr kls 3rk1 g asrama xD

Wednesday, January 26

tak bole tido

x leh tido kot
sbb tu la aku on pc
hmm knape ni
bile aku teringat hal sek tros x leh tido
hoho aku bukan nye ingat ape
just teringat hal2 manis kt sek
keje yg aku suke bwat~ membabi bute
huhu bile ingat sume bende tu teros x mgantok !
jap lg plak kene amek result check up tu
pelu ke berdebar ?
haha
nothing will happen kot (: