ofcuz it will sound fuckin weird.
everyone knows how much i hate that place which i call school n its a place where i actually live.
but dis evening i told 'iban' i wanted to go back to school n then he said padan muke.
UGGGHHHH
dun tell me im startin to love that freakin place ?
hell no !
maybe i just bored at home.
i should hate that place so much this moment.
why?
~im having a big war with my besty , oh shud i still call her besty ?
i mean my ex besty, why she still dun wanna admit even a single mistake ?
i had apologized , ugh whateva.
~the MT are chasing me to brainwashing me xD
just a matter of me date wif iban.
"haha what does it mean a couple if u guys dun see each other"
dats my motto lolz.
~ustazah's also lookin forward for me for a private chat.
i wonder what is it but ofcuz it has to be sumtin wif dat date-matter too.
~oh n hye. more people are knowing dat news. ugggh
fortunately diagnostic just ended.
but imagine me facing all those above when i was facing the exam.
for God's sake i never been so stress like that.
iban acted like he dun care eventot he listened to me.
i duno la sumtimes he culd be a very caring bf
n some other time
NOT
should i dump him ?
haha no no
takhabeslagikikisduetdie xDD
oh btw lpe na catat
1 nov 2011 which i dun remember the day
mulut aku kne operate cuz ade mcm ketumbuhan kcik.
moments die ?
ok cmni
haha
ms aku kne bius aku x tgk.
tp sumpah sakit yela ade jarum pnjg kne cucuk kt lips korg.
aku na nanges tp sumpah x nanges un aq an gentleman.
then aku x ase pape ag. numb.
tp aku ase cm lips aku besa ms tu.
then die ltk cm ape tah kt muke aku bg mke aku tegang lol.
then aku tgk pe jd sume.
specialist tu amek pisau kcik n potong kt tmpt uh.
byk kali kot die ptong sumpah aku takot.
then aku tgk die lap darah byk gile.
yela lips kn act kulit tp die merah cuz darah flow.
after da hbs potong die amek benang jahit tu n a pair of mcm scissor.
jarum die pndek je.
then die jahit la, time die tarik benang uh aku dpt rse mcm ade tali kt mulut aku huhu.
da gunting pe sume n da settle.
i looked myself in da mirror,
haha hodoh doe !
my lips were lookin bigger than usual hodoh doe.
ms na blek tu cm saket doe.
bius die na ilang.
but then ok je after mkn ubat smpai la skrg.
alhamdulilah tade pape.
thursday next week bukak jahitan so bapak lme la aku pb.
me n iban are gonna missing each other ):
oh im kinda realize
he's the reason dat i stay.
thx iban ilysm.
n im startin to learn to accept our new life that comes
n im tryin to stop cryin remembering my old life :'( :')
maybe Allah wants to give me something that is more worthy then staying in my old life that perfect.
n maybe Allah wants to show me we need to sacrifice for something we aim.
insyaAllah i'll do wtv to get it n win this fight.
thats filzah :)
No comments:
Post a Comment